Monday, January 31, 2011

Day: "Too Close To Leaving Home"

It's been about a month and a half since I've commissioned. So far my free time has been spent working, working out, hanging out, packing, and moving....not to mention getting sick...3 times since December. Talk about stress and crappy Florida winter weather combined (40s in the AM and 70s by noon).

In spite of my plans to attend Gasparilla, an annual parade in downtown Tampa that includes pirates, beads, boobs, booze and arrests (apparently this year was ONLY 300 arrests compared to last year's 400!!), I ended up with ANOTHER cold which had me bed ridden all day.

Sunday, AKA yesterday, was the Warrior Dash. It was quite fun. Despite being unable to breathe well because of my cold (I paid $25 for it so I was gonna do it regardless), I think I did fairly ok...escaping with only minor scrapes and bruises. :p I'm definitely glad my sister pushed me into trying it out. Nothing like seeing good looking men in speedos (winky face).

Free Beer! Heck yes.

Getting in the spirit.
My Sis and Me with our free Viking Hats :p

Today was my last day living with my boyfriend. I had to turn in the keys to my first apartment today and move back to my parents. Did I mention that I received a text from my dad reminding me to be home by 10pm? I don't miss it...but I will miss my family and friends. I have never been good at "see you again one day"/"good-byes". Today, when my boyfriend left me to go back to his grandma's (and then parent's house) I cried up a storm....and, guess what? I see him again in 5 days. I just can't do it. Especially with people I love. Change is great...I just wish he could come with me. Military life sucks already.

On a flip note, my "sponsor" down at my duty station in Texas contacted me. He seems like a great guy and he's been helping me out quite a bit. Now to do the stuff that's he's asked me to do....oy...more work.

The packing/moving doesn't end here. NOOOoooOOOoooo.....even at my parent's house I have to dig through all this crap in my room that I have tried to ignore for so long. I just wish I could throw it all away...but my conscience reminds me that donating is probably the best route for the most part. Those trash bags are looking like a mighty good idea right about now.......

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Day 34: "Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent." ~Eleanor Roosevelt

Why do I always find myself stressing out?

The other day I was buying something at the GNC in the mall and they gave me a free magazine (like always). But, this time, I decided to actually flip through it. (What the hell..might as well). I came across an article about "ANT"- I forget what the "A" stands for (I guess I could google it) but basically it's always dwelling on the Negative Thoughts. I find myself experiencing "ANT" a lot lately, but this isn't my first time. I've always been this way. I'm so focused on the negative that I can't enjoy the positive; So afraid of making a fool of myself, or having to endure negative feedback, that I'm keeping myself from taking a risk. 

I don't want to live this way anymore. Especially as a new LT (who starts training in about 3 weeks or so, mind you). I want to be able to step outside all this negative thinking and "just do". Maybe if I make myself believe that's how I want to be, it'll actually happen. 

Yeah, I'm moving from my apartment next month and have a list of tasks to do (paint the wall, renew driver's license and tags, pack, pay bills, etc...) but it will get done without a doubt. I need to stop that stressing crap. I'm gonna give myself wrinkles too early...or worse...a heart attack. 

Yeah, I'm leaving my parents and diving into adulthood of having to pay bills and deal with finances. I've got so many people to help me. I have to stop thinking that I'm the only one in the world who can deal with my issues. They have financial advisers for dealing with finances, ya know.

And, of course, I'm leaving my boyfriend. Why can I not stop dwelling at that fact? I'll still see him through Skype and, you know what, he's right. We won't get the chance to miss each other. We might not be able to hold one another and physically "be there", but we have all this wonderful communication at our disposable and that he knows I'll surely exploit to the fullest. 

Quit the worrying, LT Slacker. You're bound to make A BUNCH of mistakes in life. Take risks, and listen to Eleanor Roosevelt for once in your life (or Nike).

"Just do it!"- Nike

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Day 21: "If you are never scared, embarrassed or hurt, it means you never take chances"- Julia Soul

Update of my week so far....

I've been fairly productive, but at the same time the "wait-til-last-minute-and-completely-stress-the-hell-out" side of me is coming through. The last week of January is going to suck since it will consist of packing, painting, and moving my stuff from the apartment I'm currently in to my parents house. At least I'm just a college student and most of the crap I have can be donated or tossed. That first week in February without having to work or really worry about much will be heaven.

Anyway, Tuesday was my errand day. Why do bases, well...scratch that...Why does MacDill Air Force Base have to be so damn confusing? It took me 45 mins and a phone call to a friend (What is this? Who Wants ToBe A Millionaire?) to finally find what I was looking for. 40 minutes of waiting later...I was told I could apply for moving my things online...grr... I also opened a checking account, ate lunch with my pops, stopped at the Dealership, went to ROTC to get my 2d LT certificate (yup, it's official now) and other goodies, worked out, and watched a bit of the Sugar Bowl on T.V. It was a long, fairly productive, Tuesday.

Wednesday...worked...dropped my new car off at the dealership so they could add some upgrades and watched what was supposed to be just one movie. Ever heard of "The Last Exorcism"?  Yeah, well...freaked me the hell out. I was both appalled by the Reverend's antics and just the entire movie in general. The ending was predictable, though....However, I made my friend rent "Dinner For Schmucks" so that I would be able to sleep alone at night in my apartment. Yup, I'm a scaredy cat and I'll show it. Hence the reason why I try to stay away from horror flicks...

Now, back to today!! I'm at work til about 2...6 hour days are baller. Hopefully I can pick up my car today. I'm debating on driving to the University of South Florida to workout at their gym...but I feel ripped off having to pay for parking!! It's ridiculous...and the parking Nazis are relentless. They smell "trespassers" from a mile away...Like finding the will to workout isn't hard enough without having to strategize a parking plan...

Happy Three Kings day, for those who celebrate it! Back to work I go!

Monday, January 3, 2011

Day 18: "“Life is change. Growth is optional. Choose wisely.”"

Explanation of my blog name: I am NOT a least not when it comes to work. (haha) My coworkers/boss came up with the nickname slacker because I was part-timer, working random hours over the week day. Now that I'm a Lieutenant, my nickname has also increased in stature. lol I like it, therefore my blog reflects the name.

Anyway, it's been 18 days since I've commissioned and about 9 days since I last updated. Getting past the holiday craziness was an obstacle for sure, but now I'm back to work at the least for the next 3 weeks.

I have much to do in the 35/36 days I have left in Florida. Packing, throwing away, donating, canceling, etc...of the things I have in my apartment....but I also want to have fun with family, visit friends, and go to theme parks while I can. Therefore, I'm going to try and do as much as I can before the last two weeks I'm here to hopefully be able to enjoy a stress-free time before I leave.

But hey, I got a new tattoo and a new I guess it's all good. :p

I am determined to get rid of all the negatives from last year, even if that means forgiving that bitch of a woman I wrote about a couple of blogs ago. Eh, I'm ok with it.

Plus, "Keep your friends close and your enemies closer." ;-)